Hi there, I'm an INFP who recently graduated in June this year, and I have been battling anxiety regarding choosing a career since high school probably. In my junior year of college, I honestly knew I was going to have this unsettled feeling post grad. I love art, photography, music, traveling, reading, and writing. I've pretty much only had jobs working with children and older people in care settings (home, preschool, etc.). I've found that I enjoyed being a caregiver because I get to develop a close bond with a family or older person, and that I am not supervised or have someone on my back 24/7. Applying to jobs and interviewing is tough for me as it's hard to talk about my qualities and put my best self forward.
With regard to what I want out of life, I wanted to someday get married to my boyfriend, be able to start a family, travel, and have a career that I love. But I always seem to feel like this is too much to ask for? I am in the process of getting ready to apply for Master's OT programs, but I'm struggling to be confident in this decision. I love to help others and think I would like being in a non-medical profession, while still having patients. No matter who I talk to, how many youtube videos I watch, how much I research I do, and how many grad school info sessions I go to, my heart is just not totally sold. Thinking outside reality, I'd love to be able to travel and take photographs, or come up with an amazing, successful business idea, but those things are out of reach.
After looking through many posts from other INFP's, it seems like we struggle with the ability to choose a job and stick to it, make decisions in general, and struggle with how we evaluate ourselves and others evaluate us in our occupations. I struggle with criticism, even though I may really want to improve. Sometimes my shyness and anxiety just really get in the way. If anyone could offer any advice about working through these emotions, I'd so appreciate it!