I am an Intp and I am about to lose my mind. I am beginning to think a person can die of boredom. It is not my family that is boring me or anything but I feel I haven't done anything with my life. Sometimes I go into stages of depression just thinking about it. I want to do something that will make my heart race fast. To help others solve their problems the best that I can. Still, I can never seem to find any opportunities. My mom is very protective and I can see where she's coming from since the world is a dangerous place. But that's what I want. I want to experience and learn more about this dangerous world. I want to see life for myself. Right now I feel like a trapped bird. I get really restless and agitated. Many people do things that are normal that I just can't understand. It's really small things too. Like brushing up against me when there was enough space for you to walk, throwing things on the ground when there's a trash can near, talking about people behind their backs who you're friendly with and more(a lot more). I get lonely and depressed often. Irritated too. I have thought some things about people that aren't very nice. Seriously, I need something more or I'm going to go insane. I want to talk with someone about life and deep stuff without seeming strange. I want to do things that make my heart beat fast with excitement and freedom. Sorry if this is corny or whatever bu it's what I'm feeling at the moment.

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tmozzarella says...

I know how you feel I've been there and can get there very easily if I'm not careful. I found the best treatment was to travel. Leave your mother behind, leave your doubts behind and rub shoulders with the greater world - you'll be amazed at the change will make it being you and for you. The world is a magical miracle with so many beautiful things to see. And they're all boredom killers.

Guest (not verified) says...

I know what you mean

Guest (not verified) says...

Don't know how old you are but assuming over 21, save up and go travel. Gives you reflection time and able to get better perspective on life. I was going nuts as well five years ago and ended up taking 1.5 years off to travel. I did extreme low budget travel, spending around $10-30 a day around 'Asia'. The cheapest places make for the most interesting places; it was amazing. I am now a bit more 'normal' (I see normal more as 'average' rather than correct) and less restless... might even do some 'normal' things like buy a house. Damn... what happened to me!

tryinggames19980 says...

I guess the INTP (I am one) are the type who most easily will find themselves in such a condition of mind.

It was a protective mother who held the cage keys very tight on her hands to make me feel exactly like you, and destroy any chance of happiness in my life (if you don't get the university degree you need to have a life that will suit you, at an university ambitious enough for you, your life is wrecked for good).

So, do anything on earth to play all your chances in life, before it's late (time is not reversible, as I learned once I finally managed to exit the cage).

tryinggames19980 says...

As to the "I want to talk with someone about life and deep stuff without seeming strange." part, that again is achieved going to a university where you can mix with people of your same mental attitude.

But there is an optional way: reading serious books (example, Thomas Mann, or Robert Musil). Watching serious films (example: Manoel de Oliveira's works). Listening to serious music (example: Bruckner symphonies)
All of this is immensely easier thanks to the Internet than it was just 10 years ago, and has been in all the course of human history.

Guest (not verified) says...

Go to college. An education is key to your happiness. Place yourself in an academic arena - you will love it. Also travel is a great suggestion but an intelligent hard working environment will be healthy for you too. If you like a certain subject write about it, study it, and do some research on your own. Seek out other people who understand and appreciate you and share the same interests. Place yourself near intelligent respectful and caring individuals - you could even start with something as simple as a book club. You will find solace with other people who share the same likes and interests. This will most likely be as I mentioned earlier in places where intellectuals reside, like colleges. Talk to a counselor or teacher. They could help guide you in the right direction. Take a free online course through EdX even just to learn something. INTP's have an endless desire to learn and seek out different types of knowledge. If you don't do that for yourself you will become listless and restless.

Phoenixa (not verified) says...

Grow up and stop whining. Go to your family doctor, get an Adderall prescription, and get your shit together. The UN adopted 17 new Global Goals that every country in the world is supposed to achieve by 2030. Pick one and get to work. Whatever you don't know, you can google and figure it out. Bon voyage.

Guess (not verified) says...

Tough love but I like it. INTPs are made to solve the big problems. The world's top institutions are looking for people with our skills.

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