Hello folks, I'm a 25 yrs INTJ trying to find some light in this existence. English is not my first languange so I hope it is understandble. I am at my ''best moment'' of my life (Financially independent, living in paradise, healthy, etc.. too subjective, but it will help to understand) However I have to hardly force myself to feel happy/grateful. Thinking by myself, it makes me wonder that everything is related to personal connections. It is unpleasant to talk about my issues because I know how privileged I am, but here we go. I find really difficult to connect to people in general, but especially in regards to deep intimacy. I'm not used to express my genuine feelings through language and it is natural to me to ''hide'' my emotions. I don't want to cover everything, so I will go directly to the point.. I've learned how to enjoy my ''unique qualities'' in social gatherings (to ready bodylanguage, to hear almost everything, to observe patterns etc) but lately (always have but you got it) I'm having trouble with dating. It seems that my ''mysterious vibe'' and my physical apearence (for me I am just a ''normal guy'') intrigues people (literally all kind of people). I've had to learn ''social skills'' (tons of sources) to compensate my lack of extroversion, so I'm aware of my bodylanguage, voice tonality, eye contact etc. However, I feel that my mind works so logically that I find hard to start a conversation even to women who are clearly ''open'' or sexually interested . It seems that I have to know them very well before I make it personal. So I usually end up alone in my 'bubble' 'even when I desire to socialize. I don't care that much anymore, but obviously my ''ego'' feels when I hear stuff like ''he got some problem'', ''he is definitely gay'' , ''this guy is always by himself'' etc I had one girlfriend in my life (for 3 years, probably also an INTJ) , some other short relationships and several one night stand (mostly they approached ) . Any thoughts on this ''case''? Feel free to ask details , my thought process, or anything..