hello I am new here and I would like to hear your thoughts.
I'm 23 gay guy from KSA living in germany, shy, like to dress good, lazy, emotional take opnions personally sometime, I like to do my own stuff on my own way:like what I think and so on, I play online games like the game LOL waste time on it actually.
I have good eyes on colours, clothes and rooms and think moslty how they could be looking better if this and that changed. Friends love go shopping with me to take my opnion.
I love watching others when they speak and see how diffrent they are and what they say and how they say it or express themselves. I like to support others emotionally and strength them if they are insecure in something. most of friends ask me about thier relationships and problems and how they feel.
I started last year doing nursing and it was fine for me except I did not like the shiftsystem like waking up at 4:30 am and had some trouples bieng like me self or like get hartend ( i dont know how to express it) when there was superviseros watching my work .. but then they fired me because of the language .. good grades and the patients loved me! and I dont think I would do it again.
now i'm working part time at a pizza place, and looking for something to study cause I want to have a good income and balanced life doesnot mean like I want to the richest just ok.
people say I am a good listener and I like to help others I understands emotions of others, in the other hand I like art and I would like to learn it. I am not good at it but I am always amzed by it, I draw like abstracts and so nonesone stuff which I but like.
I feel so lost in life at this Point and have no Idea what I want to do ..
I like lot of stuff like Psychology, Interior design , Architecture and Art, fashion and think about medicine and Informatik but I dont think with logic came from friends as well .. I am always changing my mind and think about new stuff and years go on so quick without me noticing..
my family are putting pressure on me, they want me do ingenuiring like my brothers they live far away from here but we are arabs so they put thier opinions on what I do, and I dont like that at all.
is there anybody who is like me and have found a solution or a way to help themselves out?