Greetings and salutations,
I've been familiarizing myself with MBTI for over a year now, and I've consistently struggled with whether I am ENFP or INFP.
Nearly every time I take the test, I am ENFP. However, when interacting with other ENFPs or researching ENFP characters, I find myself under the uncomfortable difficulty that comes with trying to find one I can truly relate to. I am 100% an NF, no doubt about that, and others have guessed that I am INFJ, ENFJ, ENFP, and INFP throughout my life. Going over the cognitive functions, I've narrowed it down to ENFP and INFP- I love organizing and list-making, but my spontenaity and difficulty with following through on projects far overpowers these qualities generally indicative of a Judger.
Here are some basic observations of myself:
-Identity is very important to me- I'm a type 4 enneagram and strongly individualistic
-On every introversion/extraversion test, I score nearly 50/50
-Technically, I get my energy from social interactions, though I've recently wondered whether this is due to the fact that I spend most time alone and consequently appreciate social interactions more when I have opportunities for them- i.e. would I still choose social interactions over solitude if I experienced more social interactions?
-In every other sense, I am extraordinarily introverted- I concentrate better alone, have to do projects alone, need to be alone to understand myself, can communicate feelings far better through the written word than verbally, have a need for journaling and writing out thoughts and feelings, constantly immerse myself in books and movies, am very private about how I truly feel about things, and am not generally the initiator of any conversation unless I am trying to befriend the hypothetical wallflower at any given party
-I am extremely passionate about storytelling, and my largest interests are English, theatre, and film
-I also love exploring the human condition- psychology, sociology, and communications classes fascinate me
-When in a room of extraverts, I am the quiet one, but when around introverts, I will assume the position of conversation-starter and often befriend many of them
-Despite being an FP, I have been told that I am highly analytical and grounded
-In any given social situation, introverts are drawn to me and extraverts enjoy unloading ideas onto me and enjoy my listening
-Every single character I identify with is an INFP, and every character I've been compared to by friends is an INFP, with few exceptions
-I once journaled during a missions trip and sent entries to family and friends, one of whom told me my perspective and writing sound exactly like Anne Shirley from Anne of Green Gables, which I've unfortunately never read, but I know has been debated as either being ENFP or INFP
-I am known by my friends as a good listener, writer, and optimist
-Careers and hobbies most suggested to me by others include elementary school teacher, English teacher, lawyer, author, journalist, librarian, YouTuber, and blogger
-I love being the champion of the underdog and befriending outcasts/wallflowers I think mostly because I had been one for so much of my life, and now that I've become comfortable with myself I desire to help others find themselves; I can tell when someone has a good heart and always fall for the shy outsider
-Even though I can enter the witty banter of ENTP friends and love a good debate, I'm much slower verbally and am much better in my head/when alone/in writing
-I lose myself so often in thought it's surreal; place me in a cardboard box for 48 hours and I'll emerge with fifty novel ideas and the solutions to half of the world's problems
Clearly, I show signs of ENFP and INFP, and despite knowing that an individual cannot really be both, for once I have thrown logic to the wind and declared myself ENFP/INFP. Despite this, I still feel a sense of uncertainty. I'm hoping for two things here in this forum: 1.) objective opinions and observations from my qualities listed and writing style that lead you to believe I am one of the two types, and 2.) any other NFs who have experienced this, specifically ENFPs/INFPs.
I'm new to this website and am unsure of whether I'll receive a response, but if someone has made it this far, thank you for your time and I hope to hear from you!