I am a highly intelligent 21 year old male INTJ and have started to wish sometimes that I was hit on the head with a rock when I was younger.
I am often highly misunderstood and have begun building an exterior conformist image because people just don't get me. I excel at my work but am excluded from the team. I have some solid friends spread over the country but now that I am older and have moved for employment I seem to never meet new people that relate to me and my perspective. I usually enjoy time on my own but have been experiencing stage 1 hypertension and am very stressed and anxious, partly due to being an INTJ. I am proud that I am not a sheep but I see a long, hard lonely road ahead to achieve my goals. I find it hard to ignore the big picture of where our species is heading and am very synical about how little mankind has progressed from being animals. I feel like everyone is so pretentious and shallow and live inside their little bubble. I know the important things are looking after my family and friends and securing myself for my generations bleak future but where are the people I read about in history that dedicated there lives to human knowledge, wisdom and progression. We are returning to pre WW2 global political and social climate. I may be egotistical at times but when I am on my death bed what will matter to me is what I did in my life that will effect humanity and the people I care about positively after I die.
My question is where and how will I find other people with a similar attitude? Do other INTJ's feel like I do or am I even more unique then a rare Jungian personality type? I would like to be a part of something bigger and greater and share my passion for the big picture with those that feel the same way as I do.